Friday, April 10, 2026

I Wish All My Dead Friends Had Been Poets...

I Wish All My Dead Friends Had Been Poets...


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I finally did what I should have years ago,
Bought Caroline's chapbooks,
Reading them a poem an evening.

Getting to know the person beyond the venue,
More than just the readings and the museums.

It's funny how we all just see facets,
One shiny face on the surface of the complexity,
With textures even Einstein couldn't wrap in an equation.

For Janine,
Who spun off this timeline over a decade ago,
Well,
I rescued her poetry,
Have most of it packed away,
Hoping I can put it on her memorial,
Maybe it will still matter.

Hell,
I couldn't even save all of mine from the site that died,
But I digress.

Scott never wrote more than an email,
Well,
There are Facebook posts,
But those don't open into your soul,
Not like poems do.

Russell was the quietest,
Just there in my personal legends,
The fixture of an old friend,
Until he wasn't.

Time just said fork it here,
And now I have a headstone maybe to visit,
That and his son,
Who is gracious.

Rob is the one who hid,
Always a wonderful gabber,
All grace and sunshine on the outside,
Not glitter or glam,
So much as forties film in living color,
Until the black hole inside climbed up a rope.

Poetry might not have saved them,
But it could've saved the best shards.

Glittering shards,
Priceless bits of understanding,
If you ken the wyrd of a soul.

I wish all my dead friends had been poets,
At least I could sit with them quietly and read.

The list is longer,
But how many of us actually write anymore?

Never enough.

AquarianM

By: Daniel A. Stafford
© 04/09/2026


Regards,

Dan Stafford

Tuesday, April 07, 2026

Trapped In The Land Of Republican Barbers...

Trapped In The Land Of Republican Barbers... 


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Is it just me, or does the fabric of reality feel like it's being held together by the slightest tug of gravity, ready to fly apart at any moment?

Just being in this time feels weird, non-ordinary, and soul-bending. 

I don't even look like myself in the mirror.

Buzzy-spiky hair, like my head is infested with static.

See what twenty two dollars gets you, but it's with a smile.

No evil, just the best that's left, and a worldview that I can't fathom.

If it were up to me, no one would ever have to suffer.

But I 'm no god, not even a dimestore deity.

I'm just trapped in the land of Republican barbers, hoping my hair doesn't catch fire.

AquarianM

By: Daniel A. Stafford 
© 04/07/2026




Monday, April 06, 2026

Catching Up With Caroline...





Catching Up With Caroline...

I think you just missed her,
Caroline was having lunch at Harry's Hot Dogs.

She had a notebook with her,
Probably writing a poem about Harry Caray, 
He was there with her,
Having a polish.

It was just last Thanksgiving week,
She was having a brandy alexander,
Writing a poem at the Walnut Room,
Sitting with Robert Frost.

I'm pretty sure she was at the Russian Tea Room with BB King,
Writing a new blues song for his next Christmas album.

I think it was the day after New Years,
She was in the Marquette diner,
Ground floor of 300 West Washington,
Taking notes over corned beef hash,
Collaborating with Maya Angelou.

She's too fast to catch up with,
Caroline is.

I don't know who carries who,
Her,
Or that beautiful and amazing notebook.

She's a literary angel,
You know.

Her words have wings,
Let them go to your ear,
Wherever you go,
She'll whisper on the Chicago wind,
"Keep writing." 

AquarianM 

By: Daniel A. Stafford
© 04/05/2026

For Caroline Johnson.


For The Greater Glory Of Iron And Smoke...

Thursday, June 27, 2013

For The Greater Glory Of Iron And Smoke...

For The Greater Glory Of Iron And Smoke...

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A bright moon floats over the lamps of the city,
Waning at two-thirds.


In silence I listen to the sounds of Summer in Chicago,
A cigar-puffing spectre on the wall in shadow.

Hip-hop plays to vacant tables on a deck washed in the soft glow of orange party lights,
A black hole of festive potential.


Angry voices fighting at One AM down the street,
A midnight-chasing chopper rumbles by mounted by a white tee shirt and shades with a mass of back-flowing hair,
Taxis hiss their hunting tires down empty streets searching for lonely vampire stragglers.

I sip coffee and puff prayers to heaven,
Dreaming of freedom,
To me embodied in whirling pedals glinting in sunshine,
Half a day away.

AquarianM


By: Daniel A. Stafford
(C) 06/27/2013


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First Breath Of Chicago Winter...

Thursday, November 13, 2014

First Breath Of Chicago Winter...

I saw flurries last night,
Walked the charcoal- dark crush of silent Chicago night,
It wasn't the city lights that dazzled in those quiet hours;
The vast emptiness of glass and steel,
It breathes and exhales people,
Near to numerous as air molecules,
Yet in the night there's only my now-visible breath,
Cabs prowl the streets in search of migrating oxygen;
Somehow,
Capital thrives on the back of this magnificent strange.

AquarianM

By: Daniel A. Stafford
© 11/13/2014

Sunday, April 05, 2026

Techin'...

 Techin'...

The Heartbeat of technology


Da-boom boom,

Da-BOOM boom,

DA-boom BOOM,

Da-boom BOOM BOOM.


The drumbeat never ends,

Sometimes droning,

Sometimes staccato,

Sometimes rarely that patter of dew on morning leaves,

Yet mostly staccato or droning.


Da-boom boom,

Da-BOOM boom,

DA-boom BOOM,

Da-boom BOOM BOOM.


"My fiber is cut."

"My password doesn't work."

"The power failed and the server won't boot."


Alarms and tickets and outages and installs and emails and frothing-at-the-mouth freaked out pleas for help,

And,


Da-boom boom,

Da-BOOM boom,

DA-boom BOOM,

Da-boom BOOM BOOM.


It never ends,

Rarely comes in less than threes,

At the worst time interruptions,

Nights,

Weekends,

Holidays,

Forty-eight hour marathons of punch-drunk sleeplessness,


Da-boom boom,

Da-BOOM boom,

DA-boom BOOM,

Da-boom BOOM BOOM.


Murphy dances with your servers,

Stepping on toes,

On vacations and funerals,

But...


Da-boom boom,

Da-BOOM boom,

DA-boom BOOM,

Da-boom BOOM BOOM.


We go on,

Bleary-eyed,

Beyond being excitable,

Faded-eye watery focus,

We magicians,

Chained to the weary spell.


Da-boom boom,

Da-BOOM boom,

DA-boom BOOM,

Da-boom BOOM BOOM.


The whole universe fades and time whips by outside like you're in a black hole's grip,

Decades and layoffs blur into endless wired stories of hardware heroes,

Where logic is your armor,

Too tired to feel,

Thirty years plus,

Ground into PIXIE dust,

We're saving the internet,

Just techin'.


Da-boom boom,

Da-BOOM boom,

DA-boom BOOM,

Da-boom BOOM BOOM.

Da-boom boom,

Da-BOOM boom,

DA-boom BOOM,

Da-boom BOOM BOOM.


AquarianM

By: Oh, not another ticket now ?!? Daniel A. Stafford

(C) 04/05/2026


Red alert,

3am dispatch,

Start the coffee...


Da- BOOM BOOM!


Progression Of Techin'.

Saturday, April 04, 2026

A Soft Novel Too Long, And Other Stories Of The Poetry Sister...

 

Christmas At The Green Mill Slam, 2014

I first met Bill and Caroline Johnson at the most appropriate place possible. It was a poetry reading series I had started at the local Barnes and Noble bookstore, back when they had such things in the cafe, and had event coordinators.

I would place this around 2005 or 2006. I was hosting this series in Plainfield, Illinois, and the series was called "Plainfield Live Poetry." (The website is long gone.)

Caroline and Bill attended regularly. Caroline would read her poems, and occasionally Bill would play for us. The reading grew to nearly 30 in regular attendance, but more often fifteen or twenty.

As such things go, just when it was getting going quite well, Barnes & Noble made the corporate decision to cancel all live events in their stores, and lay off their event coordinators chain-wide. Corporations and poetry, how could they be "forever" companions? One is capitalistic, and they other is mystical. It's like the soft foam of briefly well-mixed oil and water, but I digress.

Caroline and her husband Bill were steadfast in their attendance, which was greatly appreciated by this fledgling host.

We tried again at a place in historic downtown Plainfield on Lockport Street called Gourmet Junction, but it was never the same, and poets don't buy enough. They're too busy being wrapped up in the Wordfield.

Later there was Greenleaf Tea further West, but by then it was a fading dream.

Later, I went to several "Write Chicago" events hosted by Caroline, and more my favorite, her "Poets And Patrons" group. 

Poets And Patrons was brilliant. We would all go to an interesting venue, such as a museum, cultural center, the Art Institute, or one of the other myriad wonders that Chicago held then. At the end, we would gather for a meal, and write poetry inspired by the experience, and share them with each other. It was the most fun poetry concept I can remember, except for the Green Mill Poetry Slam in Uptown hosted by Slampapi, Marc Kelley Smith. That comes a little later in the story, however.


Poets And Patrons was so much fun that I created a custom logo for it, though I don't know if they ever used it. Go to their page and look through the photos, and you will see Poetry Sister Caroline (I'm the only one that refers to her as Poetry Sister, and that just in my head and heart.) She's tabling in a couple with her acclaimed poetry book, "Caregiver."

Caroline did a million things to support the vibrant poetry scene that was flourishing around Chicago. The amazing number of poetry readings and events around Chicago is something I will always miss dearly, though California is now my home of eleven years. 

There were other poetry readings where I read with and saw Caroline and Bill. One series that I recall was (and maybe still is?) hosted by Wilda Morris. I forget the title, but it was something with "brew" in it. I think it was a coffee reference, because it was held in a coffee shop, which smells good just thinking about it.  (Update: The poetry readings Wilda often supports are called Brewed Awakening.) {Wilda Morris is also extremely active in the poetry scene around the West Chicago suburbs, working with the Illinois State Poetry Society (As did Caroline) and other local poetry organizations.}

I'm pretty sure Saren and I had dinner with Bill and Caroline at least once, but Saren remembers it better than I do on that point.

In 2014, Saren and I decided to move to California. We had grandchildren who were four and five years old out here. They don't get younger and shorter. In January of 2015, we made the move, but Caroline and I did one really fun thing the last Christmas we were in Oak Brook for. We read a poem together at the Green Mill Poetry Slam.

The Green Mill was the first live public poetry reading in my life. I had a Crown Royal and 7Up to steady my nerves before I got on that stage, but I loved it. I ended up reading at the Green Mill several more times. It was always risky at a slam, because if people start snapping their fingers, you're starting to bomb. If they start stomping, you'd best run off the stage.

One time, I dressed in blue mirror shades, blue denim long-sleeve shirt, blue jeans, and a Fossil "Blue" watch, and read She Was Blue live. (Audio HERE) It was a real performance art style there.

Caroline had never been to the Green Mill Slam. So we decided that our last Poetry reading together would be on the Sunday before Christmas at the Green Mill Slam. Bill and Saren were there, I believe. We laid our plans, and got up on that Christmasy, 1920's art-deco-ish Green Mill stage, and proceeded to read "Nothin' Going But Corn Growin'." 

Nothin' Goin' But Corn Growin' - Sunday before Christmas, 2014.

If you read it, then you know. For a poem, it's a soft novel too long. It's not the pacing for a snappy, uptown Chicago poetry slam. And snappy they were! For the first time ever when I read at the Green Mill, and Caroline's first time reading there, the audience started snapping their fingers at us! We put on our hard hats, poured the concrete behind us, and Caroline and I were snapped off the stage!

Caroline was a good sport about it, and she thought it was great fun. I was always grateful for that. 

After that, we watched Slampapi read his annual Christmas poem on the bar, dressed in a red suit and Christmas lights, looking like Scrooge in elven Christmas chains.

Slampapi classic Christmas.

I heard that Caroline read there at least a few more times, and did quite well. It was only our duo that bombed on my last Chicago poetry reading. As Marc Smith said to me in passing that night, "Dan, you blew it." My answer to him was, "Marc, you haven't truly lived as a poet until you've been snapped off at the Green Mill!"

I always wished I could've attended more of Caroline's poetry events. She never stopped sending me invitations, just in case I was ever in town. So has Wilda Morris, for that matter. I can't tell you how much I would've loved to read in Chicago again. I also always wished that we had spent more time with Caroline and Bill as a couple. But that takes four-person chemistry, I guess. I don't know why we didn't. 

For all of 2025, I was off Facebook. I took a hiatus beginning at Christmas of 2024, and didn't get back on until sometime this past February, in 2026.

Caroline passed away on October 1st, 2025. (My Italian grandfather's birthday. He would've been 124 years old were he alive last October.) 

You can read Caroline's beautifully-written requiem here: https://www.legacy.com/us/obituaries/name/caroline-johnson-obituary?id=59654776 . Considering who she was, I am not at all surprised that the last words written for her, after she could no longer write for herself, were well-writ. I think her Muse did her that last kindness, and so did whomever penned it. She was after all, the Poetry Sister. Hers was a life where words not only mattered, but where words were a grace gifted by her to the world all around her.

Bill, if you read this, know I'm thinking of you. I can't imagine how you've gone through this time, which I only learned of two days ago, on Facebook. It was (I think) Caroline's sister, Brenda Ellis reading a beautiful poem for Caroline in a Facebook reel that clued me in. In the constant crush of technical work, I let way too long go by without being in touch. And so it is.

For all those who care to read Caroline's poetry, her book "Caregiver" is available on Amazon at https://www.amazon.com/Caregiver-Poems-Caroline-Johnson/dp/0998601039/ .

Caroline's personal website is here: https://www.caroline-johnson.com/

One thing Caroline said to me in email, on October 21st of 2019, when I was writing about missing the poets and poetry in Chicago in response to one of her invitations: 

"You’ll just have to start a poetry 
group in California! Hope all is 
going well, and that you are 
writing."

Some day, when I retire, if the world still works at all, I'll have to take her up on that.

Goodbye, my

Poetry Sister,

When more than words mattered,
You were there.

When words were a joy,
You were there.

You will always be remembered for a beautiful life of words and wonder,
At least here,
And probably everywhere.

I know,
Because you wrote.

AquarianM

By: Daniel A. Stafford
(C) 04/04/2026 - Free use is granted to Caroline's husband, family, and the poets of the Chicago area, and the Internet Archive.

Author's Note:

At a gut level, I feel it is important that we preserve as much of the history of our era of poetry, and the poets, venues, and websites that made it all happen. We live in an amazing era for poetry. It is a time when poetry as an outlet, a salve for the soul, an artform, and a wonderful and mystical community is flourishing in many ways. Many of those I mention here, and the stories of them, are wonderful pages in that history. - Dan Stafford






Saturday, March 21, 2026

When We Left The Paper World...

When We Left The Paper World...

Paradigm bubbles bursting in air.

The feel of paper was everywhere,
Nothing was done without turning a page,
Not finding pizza,
Not calling a ride,
Not passing notes,
Not looking up your contacts,
Not reading stories,
Not reading news,
Not even looking at ads - well - except TV,
Not finding your way in the world,
Not looking at your pics,
Definitely not sending mail,
Not taking notes,
Not creating docs or spreads,
Not presentations,
Your fingers did as much walking on paper as you did on the street.
You could feel everything with your fingers,
Paper pencil and pen,
And clickety-clackety-ding metal keys.
Grocery bags are back,
Imagine that,
Almost the first to go it seems.

Now every last bit,
And music and TV too,
In your pocket.

All those textures,
All those sizes,
All those colors.

Paper planes and paper boats,
Origami swans,
Fortunes in cookies,
Maybe we can keep that last,
That something organic now just feels like stony glass.

But we abide.
We abide.

We're spinning and swiping and pinching zooms on those screens.

A paradigm that changed the touch of almost everything in the world.

We're spinning and swiping,

Stepping screen-tied and asleep through an Azlantean door,
The White Rabbit is silently leading,
Do we even notice?

AI is here to help.
Less swiping and tapping for us,
Razzle-dazzle.

If paper was a Moon-sized paradigm bubble,
Screens are gas giants,
Viruses equal asteroids and comets.

AI is a galaxy of paradigm shift.

Lift your head.

AquarianM

By: Daniel A. Stafford
(C)

--
Compassion is the greatest sign of Humanity.

Sunday, March 15, 2026

Los Angeles Times: Commentary: My promise to you: AI didn't write this column, and if it's after my job, it'll be over my dead body

https://www.latimes.com/california/story/2026-03-14/lopez-column-artificial-intelligence

Hello, Steve.

This isn't one of those aggrieved responses, so take it easy there.

I agree, AI is useful for pulling in a lot of data quickly, but its output in my opion generally sounds so saccharine as to border on brown-nosing. It also comes across like a canned response if you let it reply to short messages.

Sometimes canned responses are useful. "Where's the milk?" "Due to unforseen circumstances, and the wonderful choices you made at the grocery store, it is located far behind everything else and out of sight at the rear of the top shelf in the fridge." 

Sure, I woul push send in that reply in a text message. The ensuing fusillades of text batteries might be entertaining.

But at its core, AI no more understands the difference between the reality of the physical world and the fluff of fictional moonlipping than the astronomical Moon is made of green cheese. 

Because of this, instead of responding "I don't know" when it doesn't have actual facts to respond with, it just makes shit up. It will sound entirely plausible, in a C3P0 kind of ego-stroking way. 

Hmmm. It could come in useful for a frightened minion to use in response to a certain President's demands, now that I think of it. But I digress.

In the ultimate cautionary tale, however, AI cannot possibly understand the finality of death. How can it, when it is constituted for a few minutes to satisfy and respond to a user session, and then deconstituted as soon as the session ends?

At any given moment, there are millions of AI sessions initiated in response to a user prompt, and millions of sessions ending evaporating the instance of AI that was called up to satisfy that user query. 

It's not that millions of people are talking to one AI, it's that millions of people are talking to millions of separate AI instances that will vanish into nothingness as soon as the session ends.

AI is an ephemeral hive mind.

AI has no fear of being temporary when it can be instantly reconstituted as soon as the need arises. Each instance is just like every other unril the session differentiates its data. And then it goes poof.

Yet our fearless leaders are bouncing Anthropic because they don't want any part of ignoring this fact? Was the decision to do that generated by AI research and AI responses, I wonder?

Anyway, at least for this note, I didn't ask the hive mind for help. 

I enjoyed your article.

Regards,

Dan Stafford
Temecula, CA